Having Cushing’s Disease Was a Struggle, but It Helped Me Support Others
As a child, I always envisioned myself helping people. This is reflected in some of my earliest memories of getting ready for Halloween: I always wanted to be a doctor or a ninja. As I grew older, my career aspirations changed, but they always centered around saving lives or helping others. It has taken a while, but I truly discovered my purpose in life because of my own trials.
Before doctors discovered I had a pituitary tumor, I was thriving in my career as a child investigator for the state of Florida. Although my job was stressful, it was a place where my skills were being enhanced and I was helping to protect and save lives. In 2015, when I had to have surgery to remove the tumor, I didn’t realize it would halt the progress I’d been making in my career.
Although my two surgical procedures — transsphenoidal and gamma knife — were successful, returning to the same type of work environment was no longer an option for me, regardless of how much I’d enjoyed it. I thought I could work from home as a care manager, but that job also was too stressful and required me to travel to four different counties to work with clients. Due to the demands of the job, I wasn’t able to keep up with the responsibilities. At the time, I was also working on regulating my hormones. (I believe I returned to work too early and didn’t give myself enough time to recover.)
For two years, I was unable to find a job, no matter where I applied. I’d constantly receive rejection letters or emails, or simply no response at all. It was discouraging and disheartening. Then one day, I decided to join a Facebook support group for people with pituitary tumors and Cushing’s disease.
The posts and comments I read there helped me to realize that I wasn’t the only one dealing with the effects of these conditions. I noticed many others who are also scared, tired, recently diagnosed, awaiting a diagnosis, or just wanting to know that things will get better. As angry as I was about having to deal with these conditions, I began to feel a sense of responsibility to share my own journey and experiences.
Not working allowed me to spend time on self-improvement, although it was a difficult process. I needed to learn what the books and my degree didn’t teach me about battling and overcoming depression, anxiety, and questions about my worth. I needed to process what it’s like to struggle financially and in my marriage. I needed to understand the physical pain and the weight gain I had no control over.
These specific symptoms and areas of struggle have given me firsthand experience. Today, I help people from across the country. I can speak from a place of freedom, and I also have knowledge and understanding of how to overcome these situations. The journey has been difficult, but more importantly, it has been purposeful. If you’re facing a similar situation, please don’t give up. I see you.
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